About three years ago, a few months after Doc moved out, I joined a hiking Meetup group for the first time. The first outing I attended was a women’s get together, as it seemed a bit less threatening than just meeting a bunch of hard core hikers on a trail, only to be left behind […]
I’ve been doing a lot of obsessing worrying freaking out thinking about my future lately. I know it’s not really good for my peace of mind to have anxiety about things that haven’t happened yet and may not ever happen – but on the other hand, it’s not good for my peace of mind to just assure myself that everything will work out fine and that I don’t need to worry about the future.
Last Monday, I started to feel like a cold was coming on. I was annoyed, as I had successfully managed to avoid getting a cold during the entire autumn and winter – even when my adult kids had brought the plague home with them and succumbed to the congestion, sneezing, coughing, and general miserableness. I […]
My therapist thinks I should get a new job in a new state and leave my ex and the rest of my old life behind me. She even said, “You are running out of time,” referring to the fact that I’m getting up there in years and (as we know) it is more difficult to […]
I have a couple of recurrent dreams when I’m under stress. They are always disturbing, anxiety producing, and linger with me for days afterwards – but I’ve had them so often now that I understand that they are a sign. My brain is trying to tell me something and, if I was wise, I would […]
I thought we had discussed this in the past and had come to an understanding, my ovary named Lori — but apparently, I need to put my foot down!
I have social anxiety – but on a normal day, when I’m interacting with people I know or with total strangers in innocuous situations (like the checkout line at the grocery store), I totally forget that I do. So, when a situation that comes up that I’m at all emotionally invested in – such as […]
When I was married to The Loser, I never got thoughtful gifts. He would realize on Christmas Eve, after the stores had closed for the holiday, that he didn’t have a present for me. That would trigger a quick run to a 24-hour convenience or drug store and on Christmas morning, I would find my gift […]
Last year at this time, my garden looked pitiful. It had been neglected since the summer before and the drought had taken its toll. Many of my perennials had died and most of the mulch had blown away in the spring winds, leaving large patches of dry, dead earth behind. My daffodils and tulips struggled […]
Every year, the hospital where I work sponsors an “Employee Symposium.” They state it is a way for us to learn how to “Rest, Relax, Rejuvenate, and Refresh.” I think a good way to do all of those things would be to stay home from work – but apparently they want us to figure out […]